Missing someone you love is painful and blurry.
The worst part is watching them walk out the door.
I thought that I wouldn't of been able to write about this subject until my best friend walked out my front door.
i quickly glanced to see her leave because she knows i would never say the bad tasting words of
"Good-Bye"
I cried my heart out.
i don't think its healthy too loose that much water.
I went completely numb and when i felt, the only thing i felt was the pain of my heart and my mind.
The tears blinded me from what was really important.
saying goodbye taught me something...
i should be happy..
i am so sad because shes so awesome!
i am blessed to have such a brilliant person in my life.
Our sisterly bond and loving relationship is stronger than most.
I am blessed to have met a new sister.
i am blessed to have met...
Danica
Rae
Traweek <,3
This Thanksgiving I am thankful for this lesson i have been taught.
I am thankful for knowing danica.
"True Friendship isn't being inseparable,
it's being separated and nothing changes."
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
free fallin (live) - john mayer
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1230092/rom-houben-patient-trapped-23-year-coma-conscious-along.html
if you read the todays headlines on the right hand side, seriously, i am thankful that none of that stuff is happening too me... some people have real problems.
if you read the todays headlines on the right hand side, seriously, i am thankful that none of that stuff is happening too me... some people have real problems.
skeleton key.
inside i feel a warm pain.
its a discomfort that only so many people can cause.
this pain hurts everywhere.
my back is sore.
my stomach is turning.
my head aches from the sound of my breaking heart.
my eyes are dry.
my fingertips are cold, freezing cold.
i tell myself to stop worrying, let go.
breath.
release.
i take a breath.
the pain somewhat subsides.
the pain is in my heart...
a certain amount of human bodys have a special key.
a key that fits this one lock.
this lock is narrow and small but this lock keeps me alive and creates my emotions&decisions.
the only bodys that can cause me this kind of pain are the people of whom i love.
they have the key to my...heart
its a discomfort that only so many people can cause.
this pain hurts everywhere.
my back is sore.
my stomach is turning.
my head aches from the sound of my breaking heart.
my eyes are dry.
my fingertips are cold, freezing cold.
i tell myself to stop worrying, let go.
breath.
release.
i take a breath.
the pain somewhat subsides.
the pain is in my heart...
a certain amount of human bodys have a special key.
a key that fits this one lock.
this lock is narrow and small but this lock keeps me alive and creates my emotions&decisions.
the only bodys that can cause me this kind of pain are the people of whom i love.
they have the key to my...heart
Automobile.
so ive been on alot of road trips lately and recently just got home from one and i realized...
driving, for me, is a time i spend alone with my thoughts, feelings, and ideas.
when im in the car ,on the road, with music, all these things seem to collaborate and i guess you could say its like gas or fuel for me.
my brain starts to just fill itself with tons of new song lyrics, poems, questions/answers and quotes. i learn from myself. so i write them down in a journal so that someday, someone else will find happiness or answers or questions through these collaborations, or maybe just ideas for them to ponder... thinking creates knowledge. so you can either remain stupid or start thinking theres a meaning behind everything..
when im on the road, my mind seems to do most of the traveling.
the car is just an automobile getting me to my next destination.
the car is my mind.
start thinking like that and you'll get pretty far without paying gas prices..
`hope
driving, for me, is a time i spend alone with my thoughts, feelings, and ideas.
when im in the car ,on the road, with music, all these things seem to collaborate and i guess you could say its like gas or fuel for me.
my brain starts to just fill itself with tons of new song lyrics, poems, questions/answers and quotes. i learn from myself. so i write them down in a journal so that someday, someone else will find happiness or answers or questions through these collaborations, or maybe just ideas for them to ponder... thinking creates knowledge. so you can either remain stupid or start thinking theres a meaning behind everything..
when im on the road, my mind seems to do most of the traveling.
the car is just an automobile getting me to my next destination.
the car is my mind.
start thinking like that and you'll get pretty far without paying gas prices..
`hope
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Rain
so the other day it was pouring rain...
and i was listening to the song "Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns and this lyric "...and every tear i've cryed, you hold in your hands.."
this made me think that rain is like the tears we shed and when it rains Gods somewhat showing us that he was there to catch our tears and wipe them away.. a symbol that shows that we are all not alone, everyone has problems and hard times.
but other times we have awesome times, sometimes we shed tears of joy.
some people hate rain, some people love it.
some people hate crying, some people love it.
tears of hurt, tears of joy.
were all diffrent yet the same because christ shows he loves us all equally...
he shows us he loves us in so many diffrent ways.
you just have to look for them.
`hope
and i was listening to the song "Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns and this lyric "...and every tear i've cryed, you hold in your hands.."
this made me think that rain is like the tears we shed and when it rains Gods somewhat showing us that he was there to catch our tears and wipe them away.. a symbol that shows that we are all not alone, everyone has problems and hard times.
but other times we have awesome times, sometimes we shed tears of joy.
some people hate rain, some people love it.
some people hate crying, some people love it.
tears of hurt, tears of joy.
were all diffrent yet the same because christ shows he loves us all equally...
he shows us he loves us in so many diffrent ways.
you just have to look for them.
`hope
Saturday, November 21, 2009
"everything happens for a reason"
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace." Ecc. 3:1-8
"Everything Happens for a Reason".
To me this means that through every life situation thats thrown at me, its for a reason. bad times, to make me stronger. good times, to be thankful for living at this second. or even meeting someone annoying haha, to make me more patient. i mean just everything has a purpose for that paticular point in time. the planets aligned in a paticular season. everything HAPPENS for own sanity. driving on the highway and theres a sign with a quote that really sticks out at you or meeting someone, its for a reason, you met that person for them to leave a statement on your life, a stamp or like a signature that only they cant get throught to you i dont know how much i can stress on this. this is one of my main life quotes and for anybody not to believe this is.. idk. for me and my bestfriend. i definatley think we met for a reason, because 7 years later and here we still are. contemplating over this quote.
just my thoughts,
take them and prove me wrong,
give me something to think about.
but hey you reading this... Its for a reason.
peace.
"Everything Happens for a Reason".
To me this means that through every life situation thats thrown at me, its for a reason. bad times, to make me stronger. good times, to be thankful for living at this second. or even meeting someone annoying haha, to make me more patient. i mean just everything has a purpose for that paticular point in time. the planets aligned in a paticular season. everything HAPPENS for own sanity. driving on the highway and theres a sign with a quote that really sticks out at you or meeting someone, its for a reason, you met that person for them to leave a statement on your life, a stamp or like a signature that only they cant get throught to you i dont know how much i can stress on this. this is one of my main life quotes and for anybody not to believe this is.. idk. for me and my bestfriend. i definatley think we met for a reason, because 7 years later and here we still are. contemplating over this quote.
just my thoughts,
take them and prove me wrong,
give me something to think about.
but hey you reading this... Its for a reason.
peace.
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